The friend who left down ,convinced me hardly why she acted so cold for no reason
In self pity ,I ran out of the room to a darker room ,the bad feeling of guilt deep inside slowly started breaking down into tears .The walls surrounded knew the silence have an untold story of several mini heart breaks .
The so natural act of a jovial mask was torn a bit .I consoled myself calm Down , Relax !.
NO! that bad cold is now busy creating a so called trauma that could possibly create a caution alert for the coming days .
" Hmm Na this isn't the end ,the self talk gets activated ,the self prepared monologues clearly conveyed dilemma which was so enduring .
This is the end ,The same self represented the feeling which were so difficult to understand .
I knew that right now no self talks could uplift my thoughts, those self helping books seemed to be so self obsessed
The blacked out me finally found peace in my stuffed bed, it wasn't that easy to break the ice between me and my sleep ,after counting down backwards from 100 99 ,98 , 97 ,slowly slowly my eyes started moving so fast my muscles were tied up for one moment I could not feel anything ,I really wanted to call someone for help , In Vain the voice box started to react like a sore throat & so void , it was all air coming out of my voice box .
A strange ray of light suddenly started to spread inside my room the room looked like a strange spot light spectrum .
Nickey! Hey Nickey " Come on wake up ,
Who is there to spoil my sleep ? Do they know how important to me is sleep, to skip those disheartening feelings ?! A totally disturbed me was about to yell ..! To my surprise the ,the person who called my name was sitting next to me that too on my bed .
Nickey It's me Ammuma ...the voice was so familiar ,It was a bliss to listen her ,
"Ammuma" ...It was a deep pause wrecked up with lots of intense feelings and pleasant memories .Like toddler I started to chatter the grievance first
Do you know how much i missed you ?Do you know once you left me I started talking to myself.I couldn't bear the pain that you left me .I have loved you so much ,I know that you too love me ..?then why you left me to this world which is so bland without you .?
All my sentiments were making me forget about the those usual gestures of being happy and welcoming when someone visits you after a long time especially a loved one .
She smiled and listened to all my asperities .She calmly replied
Nickey ! I know you miss me ?I know you really does that ,I have seen you mourning in a dark room for being not so wise ,for being not beautiful ,for being not so talented ,for being a laughing stock .My little lady this makes me sad ,really sad !
Mourn ! But never wake up like a penitent child
Wise is those who understand their limits and extends them accordingly .
My little lady do you find me Beautiful ?
I replied with a blush "You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen grandma "
She again smiled and told me " little lady ,You are my reflection ,you find me beautiful because you love me .
Beauty is such a word which exists only with love compassion and loyalty it can be meaningless anytime when it fails you to be a human .
Talent !" So talented "So what is talent to you my little lady ?
Hmm Ya after some random thoughts I chanted "Achievement and Success" that is what I consider as talent ..with a little of confidence and courtly bow, I answered
She for one moment could'nt hold her laughter ..I found her reaction bit awkward and strange
Little lady ...Talented are those who live life happily and make others feel happy about them .
She made me speechless ,I couldn't express my gratitude with words ,I hugged her so tightly she was so soft and comfortable like my pillow ...
A few minutes later I heard someone calling my official name " Ananya Ananya
Hey Ananya Wake up .It is already 8 am don't want to attend classes today .
The sunlight dazzled me up rekindling my exquisite alliance with "My Pillow" .
